waiting part-3

Adventure that it has been, its been hard though, i blame it on my studies, my first week of death is almost over and soon i will be starting my second week of death as i go into another week of projects due. Death. My sleeping habits have reverted back to high school years when i slept in the day mostly and was up all night and slept in shifts when and where i could mostly english class. This has finally reverted back again, as i am up all night doing homework, reading, watching cartoons, eating cookies, and pondering life, truth and hope. and i sleep between classes the next day. oh darn.

Its been good though, in my doctrine class which i am doing rather well in if i say so myself, we rabbit trailed to worshiping God, and threw all our answers and we came quickly to the decision that we worship God because he is truly God. Because God is who he is. Recently i have kept a running conversation in my mind about entertainment and the church, and how we are combining the two without even realizing it. At the moment i can't worship to a band on Sunday mourning, its no longer enabling my thoughts to give thanks to God for who he is! The entertainment factor of band worship, is a big blob distorting peoples lifestyles of worship.

I don't want to rant, about it but i think its worth a thought to look at the way you personally worship God! and the reasons why you worship the way you do!

Any thoughts?

Dag. THats some good Stationary!

All i have to say, is this is some pinpricking good stationary, probably one of the best ball point pens ever constructed

Went for a walk, and was thinking when the batteries ran out on the camera.

This one is actually from the car window, kinda of a quick shot that worked out. It wasn't intentional to take my camera, just was wanting to walk and think. Except it turned into a nice day, the sun peaked out of the clouds, it was a nice distraction from my homework.




Enjoy, take care!

Pictures recently Taken. enjoy!

Waiting-Part 2

Intensity still reigns,
Passion for more is still,

I weep for a friend, name is unsaid
debt, and uncertainty brought the change
the music now fades

towns are still close, your on the way out of town
I wish i could have told you more,
there was so much life to offer

He loves you deeply! Please see Please hear our plea
my words, images don't do him a piece of justice
I am sorry for that my friend

May his wonderful life meet you,

My friends, I like this as a greeting,
instead of hello, it has become so meaningless

Recently i was at the conference of the ministry in Abbotsford,
Enjoying the time spent with some nice folks, from the island (the list is long)
thanks for the fellowship it was most excellent

The speaker left me with affirmation that waiting is ok
only if you wait in; fasting and prayer
in that order so your hungry for change, and your showing discipline
and if you fast in selfishness, it leaves you empty and hungry

For the longest time i never been introed to the ministry conference
why did no one tell me about it, or was i being closed eared
It was amazing to see such amazing pastors and wives or husbands, missionaries, church elders, and teachers.
It was good to see such passion, tiredness, love
I feel scared that i will be going into a ministry role, i see the joy, and the underlying weight ofitall

The track that i attended was excellent
I have decided that even when you have taken half a course on something it shouldn't make you feel like you know the contact, this track pointed out new facts, and truths that clearly were clouded from early mournings, (early mournings and i don't mix- it hasn't improve-i hope it would, its to tiring to constantly be up early)
Tomrows's tracks should be good, as well, iam stoaked,

Theres alot to be stoaked about, I have alot to be thankful for.

Its late, theres alot here to comment on.. !

TakeCare Godbless!

Waiting-Part 1

I have discovered, or more or less i feel told, that i was 'selfish', mainly spiritualy, It was one of those Iam worshiping God, and living this adventure for almost self benefit, when in reality, i should be worshiping God because he is Holy. In one sense, i have no fear of the Lord. So i am sitting in a dessert, Iam sitting waiting, my mouth parched with thirst, It sucks, Frick, I hate sin, and its Curse. I just did a procject on Heaven and Hell, or known as the final state, and i can't wait for heaven, the imagery in the bible represents a place glorifing the master builder, and i can't wait.

So i wait, in solitude i pursue God, its hard to start something that lacks. Discipline, is like building calluses on the hands, its painful, it hurts, and you will remember how you got them.

For the next little while, this blog will be for my walk back up the mountain, to be back in the presence of God.

Please if any of this, or any future corner stones, and thoughts hit accord with where you are at, please let me know, its always good hiking up a moutian when you know someone is hiking it with you!


TakeCare, Godbless

KNOWING

For my few readers, i ask the question, How do Personally know God is there, knowing your relationship with him is Genuine?

There is a article that my roomie came across in i think it was physcology today, or something close to it, and it Talked about a pastor in a luthern church in the states somewhere. IT said that this pastor one day thought and decided he wasn't a Christian anymore. But he still was a preacher in this church.. but the end part doesn't matter, compared too, Him just deciding he didnt believe anymore.

I don't get it, at the moment i am struggling in feeling the prescence of God, which hits me in hearing his voice, knowing him, etc. So there you go, Christians Struggle, I struggle, and at the moment its probaby one of the hardest struggles of my life.

Please leave a comment of your thoughts, story, struggles, I would love to read and chatt with you upon your comments

Take Care, God Bless

Materials

For the people who still check the chubber blog still, heres some thoughts. One year later roughly, i feel i haven't grown at all in my push to live by faith. I look back and see attempts, but i also see myself still being materialistic. So for the first post in a couple months iam going to keep it short, but iam thinking and pondering of ways to get past being so materialistic, For the people who still read this, i throw the question at you, if you are, how do you get past being materialistic? how do you be content with what you have?