As this semester has started.. and i am about 2 weeks in, i have been everywhere in my studies, but I'm defiantly a little more focused for school, a little more able to concentrate in on reading and studying. But recently i have had a conversation with two great friends of mine, the convo was a along one reaching the early am, But we were discussing healing's, and in away spiritual gifts, and right now this is where i am struggling:
So pretty much I am struggling mainly in the area of "healing". I am sick of the television evangelism stuff, mainly because there is really no verification in the fact that if they were actually healings. I also I'm also tired in hearing of all these healing in missions or there was this guy who healed someone. I am tired of hearing story's that are so far off or don't seem to be real because there is no verification that it did actually happen. It also bugs me of how many sick people there are or how many people have illness and don't know what it is, or cancer, diabetes, i don't see these people getting healed, but dont' get me wrong i understand that we do need to go through trials, and that one day they will be healed in heaven, but it would be nice to see some really sick people healed.
This is even more annoying as i take a class about the history of the Pentecostal Church, and the teacher keeps referring to the "great" power of Holy Spirit, and this happen in the old days and this happened, and as i sit there listing to his thoughts, i think that all of these miracles happened 50 years before i was born. Where is it now?
I'am not very skeptical when it comes to God, but i do have my doubts, we all do. But i find myself struggling with the doubt that i haven't seen major healing or the Holy Spirit come down doing amazing things, But i have seen alot of small cases with afew people speaking in tongues. But i haven't even seen this in awhile. I try to be very open minded with God but i struggle when i don't see anyone doing any amazing things in the Glory of God. Why aren't we seeing people healed, why in our service time at church we aren't we seeing the move of the Holy Spirit, maybe its just me and i am missing something but worship service's seem dead and the messages are hit and miss. I do admit that my devo's are hit and miss also, but ive really tried this semester to give it my all, especially with in my papers i write, in away this has been my devotion as i sit and ponder of God's majesty. Example: The tabernacle wilderness is frickin amazing by the way.. haha.
So there we have it i am frustrated, I know that God is there and he is inside of me, but i don't understand his power? Is there any thoughts out there?
My old mans poems
As my dad has been wrighting a few poems now and again, i decided to help him out to show him this blogger thing, so hes started blogging his poems, check them out at ... http://godyouheardme.blogspot.com/
An ammusing quote
After being absoultely destroyed by ottawa, montreal's captain Saku koivu said this, "There's no explanation or reason for that. It's not a slap in the face. It's a punch in the face." I thought it was quite funny but true
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